You just...don't know

You just don't know how much I love you and how much I miss you
You don't know if I cried
You don't know if I lost my sanity because I think about you..a lot
You just don't know how I wish we were together

My life is no longer beautiful as it was before..yes,when you are here
There's no more sun shines
No more beeps on my phone displaying your name
No more sincere smile I can give to people around me

It hurts so much to lose you
Bearing all the problems alone
No one wants to listen to what I have in my mind
No one to share stories to

I lost everything.Yes.Everything.
But I know that you don't know all this
All you can see is I'm happy aren't you?
But do you know that behind that laughs, there are all tears
I fall sick.I can't eat.I can't sleep...since you were gone.

I am no more sane.When I am with people, I sit still, my mouth just can't afford to say anything because i am busying thinking of the happiness we had together.People noticed that I have problems.Yes, they do. They know who am I thinking of. They know it is you. They asked me not to think about you for you no longer want me but I can't afford to. I hope you are happy with the person you loved as you choose not to have me anymore. Please don't regret when I am no longer alive. My health condition is getting worse. I wanted to tell you but I stopped because I think you might not want to know anything about me anymore. I am no longer there in your life. So why would you want to know about this person.

p/s: you can take my heart as you have taken it away long time ago.Don't have to return it back to me.I don't want it anymore.

Before the time is gone.

Yeah...I'm the type of person who always talk about feelings and emotions. Feelings. Emotions. Feelings. Emotions. Over and over again. But who cares isn't it? ;)

Not blogging for awhile, there were so many things happened. I kinda lost the person I love and will always love, that was one. And yeah..I'm talking about that person. A person who I always dedicate my love poems and songs to. I miss him. Badly. I couldn't do anything to be franked for he will not response to me like he was before. But I will not stop telling him how much I love him and how much I miss him. As I have the time to breathe and tell him that, I will. I will not stop until I'm gone.

Hold you tight

I want to hold you tight. So tight that I don't wanna let you go.
I want to hold you like there is no tomorrow.
I want to hold you and stop the time.
I want to hold you for I know I am having you not until forever.

I know and you know that we only have this time
The time that should be filled with laughter and happiness of both of us
And for this time...I will hold you and will never let you go

Blind is love

Love is blind, and so blind is love. Love can make us anything. We are crazy because of love. We tend to do anything and yet willing to do everything for our loved ones. Love has a best friend called heart and they are rarely can get along with the one called brain. When humans, like me are in love, nothing can stop us aren't we? We will do things which people can only say 'eeeuuuwww', 'yuucckkss' 'what the hell are they doing' or people would ask us why we do such thing, why we don't just leave them, why we do this and that. But...because of love we do such things and because of love we do these and those. Yeah..people don't understand since they don't feel what we feel and they are not in our shoes to be frank. So it's easy to ask us to leave the person who they think is useless, stupid, irresponsible and what not.

Once I was called by a person for him to ask an opinion about his love story. He was mad at a girl he is closed with. So I was there listening to his love story. His love story is about him liking a girl who is much older than him. When he thinks about the girl, he becomes crazy yet when he thinks about their age gap, he felt there was no chance for him to have that girl. Boys...they think differently from girls. Age is not a thing that they can simply put aside when they are in love with an older girl. Guys..they are the one who will be the breadwinner, they have to consider about the age of the girl because you know..people always talk. And they like to talk rubbish. When a girl get married late, they will be given a name, which is spinster. That is because of these people who always talk nonsense. They gave a name for that kind of women plus they will talk bad about them. That is what a guy concerns for. What more about having the baby. Women have the age which I called as limit to give birth. They can't give birth like whenever they like as long as they are alive. Everything has its own rules aite? and so same goes to this. So when this guy was telling me his story, suddenly he paused for a while and said...'You must want to laugh at me because of this silly story aren't you?' and I replied 'When it comes to feelings, especially love, there is nothing to be called as silly. The thing may look simple outside but in your heart, it is complicated' And this guy thanked me for like being understanding. Yeaahh...I ate salt more than him (plz translate this to Malay idiom) ;p That is another thing about love. It doesn't care whether you are one year, five years, 10 years or even 20 years older than the person you love. Be it a guy or a woman.

Love cant also recognized what is it about you are already in a relationship. Even though you already have a partner, love can always come to your heart. You can easily melt for the new love if the love that you have have problems I suppose, or you are a person who easily feel bored or...I don't know. Nothing is impossible and of course, people can give reasons.  Being in a relationship, love can be very near, stay still between you and your spouse or it can be very far from you and later you will find a new one..or it can even be very near for the other side but the love in you went away. It can be anything and everything.


These are what love is and
Because of love, I love you:
To sayang

It speaks my heart

 

I miss him badly :(

Kau yang terindah

"Seringkali dia bertanya dan menunggu
Jika ada lagi kata-kata untuknya
Bukan aku lupa..takkan pernah aku lupa
Tetapi masa membatasi segalanya."

Betapa indahnya dirimu..andai dapat ku ungkap dengan kata-kata
Tapi seringkali tak terucap
Kerana tiada kata yang dapat menggambarkan apa yang ada difikiranku
Melihat wajahmu bisa membuat diriku kaku dan lidahku kelu.

Andai kau tahu betapa aku perlukanmu...
Kau adalah penawar tika aku berduka,
pengubat jiwa dan lara
Bibirku akan sentiasa mengukir senyum bila saja kau datang di minda

Andai takdir dapat di ubah
Andai kita bisa membuat pilihan itu...

Tetapi kesedihan tak harus ada
Kerana kita tidak tahu apa yang menanti di depan sana..
Kebahagiaan mungkin menanti

Saya yang jiwang auwww!!!!

Sekarang ni dah tah kenapa, sejak...emmmm haa!4 bulan lepas aku ni tetibe dah jadi seorang wanita yang ade taman dalam hatinya. wah3! Tapi tulah..dari ketika itu, hati ni sentiasa menyanyi riang haha. But I think it's a good thing to be happy though. Happy aku ni sampai ada yang menegur. Kata mereka obvious sangat muka aku ni dari dulu dengan sekarang. Dulu masam menyinga. Sekarang diorang dah tak takut nak tegur dah hehe. So...thanks diucapkan kepada anda yang bertanggungjawab membuat saya gembira sentiasa :)

You are the best

My love, I did promise you that whatever happens, whatever comes between us and how tough the times are, I will still be with you. I have promised that you are the one that I am going to marry and live with. You asked me to be your soulmate until forever and I agree. You want me to be the mother of your children and I want it too. I found happiness when I'm with you. Even though we have gone through so many things, we quarrel, we fight, we disagree and we mad with each other, yet I am here, still with you.

We are far from each other love, yes we do. We see and face so many things alone. Physically. But please know love that every tough times and pain you went through, I will feel it too. I will be in the same shoes of yours. For the time that we are together, I know that we have tried and are trying to be the best for each other. That is the sacrifice we have made for the one we love, aren't we love? No matter how mad and how stubborn I am, you still stand beside me. And no matter how strict and how busy you are doing your work, I am still standing beside you. 

Love...along the time we are together, you may find a person who is better than me. More beautiful, more patient, cleverer, more matured and better in every single thing than me yet you stay. Because you said to me 'it is either you or no one else'. You have promised that you will only be with me for you have found your happiness and THE person you are going to spend your life with. I thank you for this love. Thank you so much. And me...I may know someone better than you too. They are not busy as you are, they are more good looking, they are more matured and better than you in things that I see. But love...I accept you just the way you are. I have promised you that I will never choose someone else over you. I have agreed to be your wife and so I promised you that. Even though I know those guys I've said above, you are still the best. They may look good for I don't know them but you are the best because we have been together for few years and we can still be together despite our weaknesses. You are the best because you can still love me even I have bad habits, problems and all the not-so-good thingy. Thank you so much for your kindness, love and care.

Just so you know my love...I love you, I really do. I will still be here with you as I have promised. You know me well, and I know you know that I really mean this. We had bad times, we found someone better but still we decide to be with each other. This is our love.

This is where the journey actually starts.

The happiness is ours, InsyaAllah...

My missing heart - Mr.Azlan-

My other half of heart is missing, he went to I don't know where. Even a phone failed to connect us. I went through sleepless nights ever since he went away. Everyday, I just hope that I can see him in my dream. Only at 'this place' I can talk to him, sit with him, touch him, smell the scent of him, see him and listen to him. Even it is for few seconds but I'm so grateful when I have these precious moments. No voice of him heard and I miss that macho kind of voice soooo much ;). Oh God please make the time walks faster for I want to 'meet' him again. For real.

The absence makes my love fond for him. More and more and more, everyday. Like a flower thriving, that's how my love grows for him. Dear, I pray and hope that during the time that we are apart, the days and nights are being good to you because I'm not with you if you gone through bad times.

Hope to have my heart back in the condition that is missing my absence too, the heart that waiting for the time to meet his other half too, and the heart that always put his other half in his mind and never forgets her.

p/s: Do come back as soon as possible dear.I miss u (T_T)

The right side of the heart is missing the other half on the left.
     Fadhlina +Azlan = a heart

Untuk awak

This is for you..yes YOU!

Aku menyayangimu
Juga aku..aku..
Mencintaimu
Delapan hari seminggu
Semakin mendekatimu
Seperti kamu..kamu
Pun menemani
25 jam sehari...Ooo..Ooo..
Selalu begitu..
Bila bercinta, tiada habisnya..

Pernah dengar lagu ni?Lapan Hari Seminggu by Syurga *kalau tak tau cari kat youtube cepaattt!!!*
Saye suke ini lagu..
Rasa sangat comel..hehe
Ya..when we love somebody, mesti kita sentiasa rindukan dia..
Bila dah jumpa pun, balik rumah je, rindu lagi..
Rasa macam tak cukup masa yang kita ada kan?ngeee
So for you...I love u more than the time that we have hehe
8 days a week, 25 hours a day my heart is missing and loving u..(^_*)
Love u mucho!

Ingatan untukmu

Bila jauh di mata tak bermakna aku lupa
Bila diam tak bermakna aku tak sayang
Andai dapat ku lihat dari jauh, aku bersyukur
Dapat berjumpa dalam mimpi itu nikmat

Walaupun kenangan yang ada tak dapat diulang dek kerana keadaan yang menghalang
Syukur itu masih ada kerana mata ini masih dapat melihat dan kadangkala bertentang
Senyum akan sentiasa terukir bila memori yang indah bermain dalam fikiran
walau secara zahirnya semua itu tak dapat diulang

Akan ku ingat segala-galanya; yang manis dan yang pahit, yang indah dan yang pedih
Takkan ku lupa nasihat dan teguran yang selalu menyedarkan tentang siapa aku,
dan yang selalu mengingatkan aku tentang segala-galanya
Kesedaran ini membawa perubahan yang belum pernah dapat dilakukan oleh siapa-siapa
Aku bersyukur kerana dapat memiliki
walaupun sementara di pandangan mata tapi selama-lamanya di hati
Cintaku akan bersamamu selagi hayat dikandung badan

Fadhlina = Nora Elena?

Oooopppssss...terperasan kejap.Marah peminat citer Nora Elena bila aku menyamakan diri aku ngan si cantik manis Siti Saleha a.k.a Nora Elena hehe. Sekarang kan demam Nora Elena. Aku pun sekali terkena virus drama bersiri ni haha. Tapi yelah, mana tak terjebaknye, cerita die memang sangatlah comelllll!!!!!suke3!!! ;p

Kat ofis ni kami kaum hawa yang ikut cerita ni memang berceritalah pasal drama ni. Waktu habis kerja masing-masing berkejar nak balik tengok Nora Elena. Ada yang sanggup postponed date nak keluar dengan yang terchenta sebab Nora Elena haha. Kalau ade yang tak sempat tengok, esok mesti update kat member lain punye huuu. Impak cerita ni? Memang besarlah kalau dah macam ni kan.

Kalau kat rumah pulak, memang penuh 'panggung' setiap Isnin sampai Khamis pukul 7 sampai 8. Bila iklan je masing-masing bengang sebab beselah...iklan TV3 ni panjang dari cerita yang kita nak tengok huhu. Lepas tu bila part si suami isteri Nora and Seth tu je, mesti masing-masing excited sampai menjerit-jerit *maafkanlah pasangan-pasangan anda ye wahai kaum Adam bila mereka admire Seth ;p* Yang best lagi, bila kaum Hawa ni masing-masing ada impian nak suruh pasangan diorang pegi gym sebab teringin nak pasangan yang macam Seth auuwww!!!!haha.

Tapi feedback dari orang-orang yang berada disekeliling pinggang ni, memang positifla walaupun dramanye diolah banyak dari novel asal *kata kawanku yang mebaca novel Kasih Yang Suci*. Mana taknye, ceritanya teramatlah sweet!!! *tetibe rase nak jerit* :D So memang tak sabar nak tengok episod-episod seterusnya yang memang diyakini best hehe.

When a girl is....

When a girl is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind.


When a girl is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply.


When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions,
She is wondering how long you will be around.


When a girl answers 'I'M FINE' after a few seconds,
She is not at all fine.



When a girl stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying.


When a girl lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever.



When a girl calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention.



When a girl texts you everyday,
She wants you to reply at least once.


When a girl says I LOVE U,
She means it.



When a girl says that she cant live without you,
She has made up her mind that you are her future.

All the best brothers and sisters

Yesterday was the first day of final examination for UiTM students. So here I am to wish you all the best. I am praying that every one of you could answer the questions excellently. What u have collect during this four months, use them properly. With a proper preparation, InsyaAllah all of you will succeed. Allah will grant the reward for those who put the effort and struggle to get something *of course a good one*. Hope you guys will not only pass but excel in the exam with flying colours. All the best once again. Love you all :)

p/s:do not sleep in the hall ;p

Cinta pada Dia

Tak dinafikan yang cinta pada tuhan melebihi segala-galanya. Di saat hati gundah gulana, Dia tetap ada..apatah lagi di saat hati menyanyi riang. Itu pun atas nikmatnya. Bila cinta pada tuhan melebihi cinta pada makhluk-Nya, masalah yang datang pun insyaAllah boleh selesai dengan tak perlu terlalu berpening kepala.
Bila cinta pada Dia lebih dari segalanya, segala apa yang kita buat pun adalah untuk mendapat berkat dan pahala. Mungkin itu yang terbaik untuk aku dan semua...

Dah berakhir

11 April 2011 lepas, kelas aku dah habis. Seronok? Tak..sebab sedih nak lepaskan students *again*. Huuu..aku ni memang tiap-tiap semester macam ni. Bila akhir sem je, mulelah terasa sebak. Nak-nak waktu hari-hari terakhir..lagilah.. :(

Selalunya dalam my last class aritu, macam biasa adela ucapan 'penutup'..and bila nak bagi je..sebak rasa di dada, air mata mahu melimpahkan airnya huhu. Adoi..susah betula ku ni. Tapi untungnya students aku dapat lecturer penyayang cam aku ni *perasan jap haha* is diorang mesti dapat markah lebih di akhir sem huuu *tak sampai hati nak bagi fail*. Markah yang lebih-lebih tu diberi atas observation aku selama 4 bulan mengajar.

So sekarang aku tersngatlah tak busy. Datang keje, bukak PC, layan movie. Kalau takde kerja sepanjang students cuti ni..memang lemak boleh 'membesarla' huuu

Life is too short to be sad...

Life is too short to be sad..sangat pendek untuk menangis sentiasa

Indulge and appreciate whatever we have before it is too late

Find the happiness as much as we could

Always put the curve on our face and
Let the people around us know that we love them

Treat them nicely and try not to make them angry

So that once we are gone we are remembered

p/s:Sorry for the past and present mistakes.

Love is...

"Love is the irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired." - Mark Twain



"Attention is the most basic form of love; through it we bless and are blessed." - John Tarrant



Let the words describe the feelings :)

Budak kecik mulut besar

Anak buah aku sorang ni memang keletah budaknya. Namanye Adam. Daripada tak sekolah, sampailah dah sekolah sekarang ni, ada je idea yang boleh buatkan aku and orang-orang ayng dengar die cakap tu tergelak besar...Tu belum dengar kalau die menyanyi lagi. Asalkan bunyi cam kena je dengan lagu, tah ape die sebut pun aku tak tahu. Ada satu hari ni, aku duduk melayan adik kecik die. Tengah main-main, adik (Aniq) menangis.


Dialog 1:


Aku: Eh adik, kenapa nangis ni, takkan nak susu kot..kan baru lepas minum...


Adam: Tah-tah susu ibu dah habis


p/s: Aniq menyusu badan :D


Haha kelakar betul...budak kecik kan...ape je lah yang die pikir




Dialog 2:


*Adam cakap die tak nak kawin.


Adam: Ibu, kalau dekat hospital, baby yang lahir tu comel, doktor bagi hadiah ye?


Ibu: Kenapa pulak?


Adam: Sebab adik lahir dapat hadiah


Ibu: Oohhh..tu sebab adik lahir waktu Hari Raya..


Adam: Kalau camtu, Adam nak anak Adam lahir waktu Hari Rayala..boleh dapat hadiah


Ibu: Aik?Adam kate Adam tak nak kawin?


Adam: Tu kalau Adam terlupala yang Adam tak nak kawin....


Satu rumah gelak besar hahahahahaha!!!

Adam Syazwi, 8 years old

Dah pandai operate DSLR sket2 haha

Aniq NurIlman, 5 months

Happy Birthday LOVE!

10.12.2010...is the birth date of my love Mr.Azlan bin Aminuddin our birthday gap is just four days hehe
Wish him a happy life and we hope more love will come everyday showering our days.
A big thank to him for giving the precious love and share the beautiful great moments with me.
Hope that our big LOVE will end forever =)

Mr.Azlan Aminuddin

Us

Hope our days will be full of laughter and happiness like what we always have weeeee!!!!!