Happy thoughts

After a while i've been talking about sad and unhappy things, i think it's enough for me to think really hard on that matter. So here come the happy happy things to talked about! Firstly it's about my little red psp. Just bought it about 3 weeks ago. I've dreamed of having this thing since i was studying in UIA. After few years dreaming about it, watching people having it, and playing it with my saliva dropping from my mouth (eeeeuuuwww haha!), at last i have it. It took me so long and so hard to have it eh?hehe. But that's the real thing..buying it with my own money do take me a long time for i am not a rich girl *ka-chiiinng* hehe. So this is my little red

Since i have my little red, i've never feel bored anymore. While waiting for Encik Azlan to be free from his work and for us to 'get together' (through phone je pun ;p), playing my little red is the thing that i do. Sometimes i think i've spend a big sum of money to buy my little red but thinking of how frequent i use it and how i am addicted to games, i think it's worth to spend BIG on this thing which i will use everyday and very2 frequent huhu. When i woke up, I'll grab my little red beside my pillow. When i go to work, I'll spend some times playing my little red. After working..in the evening, take my little red out from my bag and here i go lying on my bed playing it. Before i went to sleep, it's my little red that i will find and play. Even though my eyes were like want to close, i'm still pressing the keypad until i can't stand keeping my eyes open anymore hehe. 

Last week when i went to Sitiawan to attend a wedding of my friend, i gave my little red to Encik Azlan for him to play because he also wants to buy one. So the purpose of me giving him my little red to play is for him to see whether he actually has the time to spend playing games or not since he is a so very busy man for a so very important post in his department/unit. When Encik Azlan see, touch and play my little red, he said i am almost succeed in persuading him to buy one huuuu. Yeah..he likes or should i say loves games too..that's why my little red is very tempting to him huuu. So for this few weeks, my little red is under Encik Azlan's attention. Hope my mission accomplished; Encik Azlan recognized whether he need one or not soon as he passed my little red ;)

The second happy thing that makes me smile is when I went to Sitiawan last weekend. Went there to attend my friend's wedding (but I think more on meeting Encik Azlan ;p). So on the whole weekend i spend most of the time 'lepaking' with Encik Azlan. On Sunday night, Encik Azlan's sister invites me to have dinner at her place. The best part of the eating part is the chicken (we heve been served with chicken rice,home made for sure). The chicken is well marinated that it taste sooooooo delicious..yummy2! Another best thing that night is me playing and watching Encik Azlan's niece and nephew playing around. Watching them playing and play with them put a smile on my face for all the time we were there. Soooo best sgt hehe.

                                              Zafran and Nina                             

                                             Cute eh? ;p
                                       

Me looking forward the happy things to be done and experienced. No more sadness or bad things to think about *wink*

Kenapa?

Sesungguhnya aku tak suka mempunyai perasaan 'tak suka/benci' towards others. But WHY others keep giving me that feeling? Enough is enough..aku pun nak hidup aman. Siapa nak hatinya penuh kebencian? Siapa nak jadi orang yang 'jahat' sebab bila hati dah tak suka, mulut mula berkata-kata. Bila mulut dah berkata, orang sekeliling akan mengeji pulak. Kalau buat tak tau,nanti kita dipijak kepala. Tahla dunia...

Ada aku kisah?

Aku tak kisah orang nak cakap ape pasal aku. Aku tak kisah kalau orang nak benci aku sebab aku tak pernah lupe yang kat dunia ni tak semua orang suke kita. Aku pun ade tak suke orang and aku tak kisah kalau orang ada perasaan yang sama kat aku. Aku tak mati pun kalau orang benci aku or mengata aku. Aku boleh je hidup macam biasa. Orang nak cakap lebih-lebih pasal aku, diaorang tau ke ape yang aku tengah hadap? diaorang tau ke apa masalah aku? Memang semua orang ada kelemahan sendiri, tapi kalau sampai kelemahan tu melibatkan kesabaran aku, duit aku dan bende-bende penting dalam hidup aku, aku kene telan ke semua tu? Orang yang bercakap tu pun sendiri selfish, nak cakap lebih-lebih tu proper ke? Memang kita kene ingat yang semua orang ada kelemahan  tapi diri sendiri jangan dibiarkan untuk 'melahirkan' lebih banyak kelemahan. Seeloknya ambillah iktibar atau pengajaran atas ape yang kita nampak. Jangan sedar je orang itu ini ada kelemahan and diri sendiri just tutup mulut and mata, tak wat ape-ape walaupun untuk kebaikan diri sendiri. We have the right dalam hidup kita. So kenape nak biarkan hak kita dipijak-pijak? Orang yang bercakap ala-ala menasihat tu pun selalu buat bende yang memberi kesan kat hati orang lain,camane? Tahla, sendiri mau ingatla kan..tapi pape pun aku tak kisah orang nak mengata belakang aku ke apa. Walaupun aku tau ade je orang berkata pasal aku tapi nak wat camane kalau die dah tak suke? Aku tau sape aku, aku ade cara hidup aku sendiri. Takkan semua pun nak ikut orang? Kalau dah rasa diri tu perfect sangat, takkan orang yang sound aku tu pun wat bende yang orang lain tak suke kan? Bila bercakap tu kene fikir..jangan men redah je..cermin diri sendiri jugak. Masing-masing dah besar and dah boleh fikir. Takkan mata masih buta, telinga masih pekak and otak masih mentah lagi untuk observe bende kat sekeliling kita, untuk belajar and untuk muhasabah diri. Come on la, jadilah orang dewasa yang bukan hanya pada zahir sahaja. Untuk ini, aku senyum je dengar orang yang ala-ala menasihat aku tu berkata-kata. Aku tak kisah pun..