Somebody I used to Know

I am now listening to this song like thousands of time. I am the very the like lagu ni. Ala2 lagu lame gitu hehe

Tears is not just a tears

I was sitting and crying just now. I was stuck in the middle of my problem. Don't know what to do and where to go. I didn't cry since the day I was 'given' this problem. There was only one or two drops of tears went out from my eyes and that's it. No more after that. But having this problem, it caused me not only a heartache but a headache as well. What a 'wonderful' things I have!Yay!! (+_+)"

And up to this point, I mean today...I was like can't bear with the feelings anymore and I cried. Not a heavy one but enough to release all the pain that I held for this long. This makes me think..why is it after I cried, I felt much better. Yes, I did feel this way before but the thought that I had have never came across my mind. So I asked Mr. Know All a.k.a Mr. Google then here I got the answer.

"Three types of tears are generated by the human eye. Basal tears protect the eye and keep it moist. Reflex tears flush out the eye when it becomes irritated. And emotional tears flow in response to sadness, distress, or physical pain.

Studies have shown that emotional tears contain more manganese, an element that affects temperament, and more prolactin, a hormone that regulates milk production. Sobbing out manganese and prolactin is thought to relieve tension by balancing the body’s stress levels and eliminating build ups of the chemicals, making the crier feel better."

These are actually taken from this site. *just in case you guys want to read the whole thing*. The word of God is always true. He creates everything in this world with its own benefits and advantages. 'Tears' is just a simple thing but it means a big thing. And so I have gotten the answer of why I will feel relief after I cried. Thank you Allah for this little thing that makes me feel better. For men, maybe tears is not the symbol of machismo but this not-so-macho thing can give you benefit. So don't afraid to cry.

p/s:I'm ok with guys who cry.

If I could turn back time

If I have the power to turn back time, or if there are times when God will give us like 'wishes', I would choose to go back when I was still in my mother's womb. There will be a time when God asks whether we can carry out our responsibilities in this world *correct me if i'm wrong*. And responsibilities bring a big meaning. It covers everything as a Muslim of course. And for that I would choose not to step my feet into this world...not to take all the responsibilities.

If I know that this world is ugly, full of things that are so attempting, those which can bring us to the hell, by the name of Allah I don't dare to take the risk. Enough with small things like our obligations. It sounds easy when we have to pray five times a day. But to carry out that obligation, there will be so many things that will come between the time. Work, kids, problem, laziness and what not. This world ain't easy.

I would choose not to enter this world because of the problems that we, adults, are facing. Kids don't have problems as we do but it's impossible to be a kid all the way unless we die as a kid. Life is hard to live in. Once I did pray to die as a child. That was when I didn't reach my puberty yet and I did that because I want to enter jannah.

And talking about people,they can make me crazy. All the problems that they created..only God knows how much is the pain I have to keep. I don't usually say what I feel because of certain reasons. Last time I did, people get annoyed and one person did say to me that sometimes we have to keep whatever feelings that we have in order not to make things worse. And since that, I keep most of my feelings to myself. It's hard though but I am sort of immune with that. Sometimes I did share my stories with friends and shockingly they said that as a woman, they can't stand at the place I'm standing right now. Then I realized that now I'm a stronger person. Yeah..look at the bright side.

If I could turn back time....I would just choose to die before I was born.